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deliveredarling -> RE: Do you believe.... (4/19/2008 6:10:36 AM)
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Would this not be a prime example of our faith meeting the road? We say one thing yet do another? Where is God in that? I would say one thing, yet when it came right down to it, my faith was in words only. I agree that it is a growing processing. I wasn't immediately delivered. i do believe that God can use anything or anyone to get his message across. Yet, I have to wonder, was I listening to the deceiver acting like God while I was using? Not having a sound mind makes it so easy to believe what we want to hear. Could it be the lack of a head knowledge and heart knowledge connection? The woman at the well was of sober mind. She could comprehend what Jesus was telling her. Would a heroin addict or drunk person be able to comprehend who He was and understand fully what He was offering her? Or do you think they might miss the boat? I definitely missed the boat for many years. I'm comparing my story with this question because of my example. I think the deceiver really did play a big part in my "deafness". I am by no means denying the power of God. I know He can do whatever He feels the need to do. After all, He did make me sober. When He made me sober, I had absolutely nothing to rely on but Him. He took that small bit of head knowledge and slowly few it while connecting it with a changed heart. Just by the realization that I was alive, planted a small seed of faith and had everything to do with my choice to trust Him. My thinking was, " He did this, can He really make me sober too?" At this point I had absolutely nothing to lose by giving Him a chance. i am so thankful that I did. Looking back over my life, I can see that He was with me all those years. He didn't leave me, I left Him. I couldn't hear Him because I choose not to hear Him. I choose to continue in the state I was in. Even considering Him, I felt shame, remorse and guilt. That wasn't near as "freeing" as a case of beer. So I knowingly, willingly, and continually stayed a drunk. I think the answer to my question has everything to do with choice.
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