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ladyichigo -> RE: Your testimony needed (4/22/2008 5:26:17 PM)
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My testimony in a nutshell: I first accepted Jesus Christ into my heart as my personal Lord and Savior when I was in 4th grade. Little did I know that being a Christian is about a relationship with God. I went through the motions of saying the “Sinner’s Prayer”, but that was about it. I rededicated my life to Christ in 7th grade after I understood that accepting Christ as Savior and Lord is to have a relationship with Him, and to have Him in control of your life….Yeah, I understood it in my head, but didn’t truly grasp the concept, and didn’t have an authentic relationship with Christ until tragedy struck. I’ve posted numerous times about my dad’s suicide and how it had impacted my life and my faith in other posts. From that tragedy and other situations that followed, I’ve come to a real understanding that I truly need to depend on God, and not be so dependent on the temporary things of life. It is through Christ alone that I find true trust and joy. I don’t quite understand as to WHY God has not given up on me. I don’t understand after all that has happened, that I still remain to have faith in God. That alone amazes me that God has not let me go. He still remains faithful even if I have not. He helps me with my unbelief and my doubts. In the places I have failed in my walk to follow Christ, God has set up pillars in those places to remind me that it is He who is in control. Everything that happens is according to His purpose and He uses for His glory. Being a Christian isn’t all rainbows and butterflies. It’s an arduous journey that we choose take to follow the One who is perfect because He loved us first. It’s about living a life that reflects the One who gave His all because of His love for us and it’s humanly impossible to perfectly reflect Christ because people are not perfect. That is all the more why we need Christ. I have been told we are weak for needing God. Only weak people believe in God. And I say yes, I am weak, and that’s why I NEED GOD, because with God I am strong. I am not blaming God for my dad’s suicide. Through my dad’s abrupt departure from this earth, I learned that I have to depend on God who is eternal, and I know that I have to trust in God and not lean on my own understandings. I know that the world is not perfect because of sin. Because of sin, all these terrible things happen. That’s why God sent His perfect Son for us to give us hope. I also know that as a child of God, and having faith that Christ is my one and only Savior, I am no longer of this cursed world. I don’t belong here. I am an ambassador to God’s Kingdom. I have been put on this Earth for the sole purpose of loving God with all my soul, mind, heart and body and giving Him all the glory. I will not reject the salvation I have in Christ just because of the things I went through. (See Romans 5:1-5). All that only makes me want to seek Christ even more and to cling on to Him more. The struggles in life are ongoing, and sometimes, the straight and narrow path seems impossible to walk, and I can’t see where I’m going. I can be bitter and angry about it and blame it all on God for all the things that has happened. If I am to deny my faith I will be without Christ, and I will have no hope and will have been certainly and eternally dead. That’s why I hold on to Jesus Christ, my Lord and my God for dear life do everything I can while I’m on this earth to glorify His name. “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28. It is because of God that I am able to see the beauty and richness, and the purpose of my life on this earth.
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