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2jsmom -> RE: June lilies, June bug, June.....homeschool Chat (6/1/2008 1:03:07 PM)
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Sue - praying for Jake & you guys too! I am sure he's disappointed. Just because the military doesn't work out, doesn't mean he won't get things together. I'll be praying for him to see clearly God's direction for this time in his life. I was listening to an old CD yesterday while cleaning (Ashton, Becker & Dente), one song from it just came to mind. It's called "Blessing in Disguise" and the chorus goes: "You can rise from the ashes again, You can rise to the morning that breaks in your eyes, for what looked like your heart's demise, has turned out to be a blessing in disguise." I was thinking about how it's so easy to see that after the blessing part has come, but so hard when you're in the midst of the "heart's demise" part! That's beautiful, Amy.
It's strange, but, in some ways, all this parallels Jake joining our family. I had tried for years to get pregnant, lost a baby, got pregnant again and carried that child for 4 months. I had finally gotten to the point where I felt it was safe to tell people I was pregnant and then there was no heartbeat at my 4 month check-up. My Dad dropped dead 6 weeks after that, and my paternal grandmother died six weeks after Dad. Grandma died on June 30th. I was so broken that I wanted to take our name off the list to adopt. Well, six weeks after Grandma died, we got the call about Jake. If we hadn't lost the other 2 babies, we would have had a placement sooner and Jake wouldn't be our son. I don't understand why God works the way he does sometimes. It felt like my heart was going through a meat grinder during the months prior to Jake becoming part of our family. God does have a plan though, and it seems that sometimes we have to get broken down to the point where we're able to be molded by Him.
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