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swallowed up by darkness - 6/7/2008 3:43:05 PM
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orangecrush27
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When i get words ill write more . I would not write on here with so many other people hurting . I am disabled by fear and doubts . i know it sounds strange and the devil is making fun of me now i can feel the hate from him . I dont care im desperate for God . 24/7 in my thoughts are these , God doesnt care about you , youv sinned to much , your going to hell , Hes cut you off , youll be a story a preacher will use one day to scare people into getting saved , your cursed thats why your alone all the time and nobody even calls , thats why your xwife left , you cant get saved you just thought you were , you dont believe in God , and much worse that i cannot say ever .
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/7/2008 4:53:25 PM
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My heart goes out to you, dear soul. That is so very sad and so difficult to deal with! It sounds like you are under incredible oppression by the enemy.
Please post more here! Your struggle is one of the most difficult things a person can go through.
I am praying for you...
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/7/2008 4:58:42 PM
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orangecrush, you know these are lies. These words don't come from the Lord. He loves you so very much. More than you or I can even understand. When tese words start coming into your mind, start singing a praise song to the Lord. Read him promises to you in your Bible. God can't lie. He said who so ever. Your who so ever. And so am I. He really, really loves you.
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
Dear Father, I lift up orangecruch27 to You. Father, You know his pain. Stop these lies Father, and help him to focus on You, and You alone. Father, I bind any evil or illness around him and ask that You fill him with Your peace and assureance. Thank You Father for what You will do for orangecrush. May You use him to Your glory. In Jesus name. Amen
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/7/2008 6:01:23 PM
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orangecrush, you know these are lies. These words don't come from the Lord. He loves you so very much. More than you or I can even understand. When tese words start coming into your mind, start singing a praise song to the Lord. Read him promises to you in your Bible. God can't lie. He said who so ever. Your who so ever. And so am I. He really, really loves you.
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
Dear Father, I lift up orangecruch27 to You. Father, You know his pain. Stop these lies Father, and help him to focus on You, and You alone. Father, I bind any evil or illness around him and ask that You fill him with Your peace and assureance. Thank You Father for what You will do for orangecrush. May You use him to Your glory. In Jesus name. Amen
praying in agreement
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/7/2008 9:27:26 PM
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Orangecrush, PLEASE, begin reading the Bible every day if you haven't started already. Compare every day what the Word of God says with these awful thoughts you are getting. As one of the NT letters asks, "Whose report will you believe?"
Satan is the father of lies. Jesus said there is no truth in satan at all. But Jesus IS the truth.
Here is what God says about you:
"I have given you a future and a hope ... plans for GOOD and NOT for evil..." (Jeremiah 29 - read it!)
"I came that they may have life, and have it ABUNDANTLY." (Jesus said this!)
Get into the Word and hear who God really is and how much He loves you! And then, command satan and his demons to get AWAY from you in the name of Jesus! Jesus has all authority on earth and under heaven, and has given us permission to use His name with authority. satan has no right to you at all and HAS to go if you tell him to!
It sounds to me like the devil has one of his lying henchman at your heels to bring you down - tell that demon to go in the name of Jesus! You don't have to put up with that!
Father God, I lift this brother before You. Thank You Lord that he is precious and beloved in Your sight, that You died for him so that he wouldn't have to endure hell, as You died for each of us, even though we are all sinners. Father, I take authority over every evil spirit that is speaking to him in the Name of Jesus and command them to leave him alone. Please Lord, fill him with a desire to read Your Word, and to believe and stand on Your Word, to stand on the truth and cast away lies. I ask You to renew his mind with the mind of Christ, that these evil thoughts of the devil will be allowed no place in his thinking. I ask You to heal him Lord. I ask these things in Jesus Name and thank You for hearing and answering. Amen.
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/7/2008 9:31:33 PM
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My friend, please remind yourself everyday that satan is evil and a liar...He is not worth paying attention to or hearing his garbage. We all are not worthy but God loves us because we are his children and he created us. He loves you and wants you to lean on him, ask him for guidance, strength, comfort, and any time you start thinking, just start praying outloud...I know it is so hard, maybe you should talk with your pastor or find a christian counselor. I see a woman counselor and it is so great to be able to talk with someone about life, issues, anything and I feel so much better being able to vent to her...
Please know I am praying for you....Please keep your focus on the Lord, keep reading the bible every day...
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/7/2008 11:17:43 PM
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Thankyall for your prayers . As for as reading the Bible i have about 10to 15 on my bed . Their different translations . Ive spent about 500 dollars on Bibles in the past 2 months . I started a new Bible reading plan the first of June . I started with , Gen . , Joshua , Job , Isaiah , and Mathew . I read three chapters a day in each section . 15 Chapters a day . So for in the past 5 days ive read 75 chapters . I just started awhile ago again and you know in Gen chapter 15 i think when itsays Abraham believed God and God gave him righteousness ? Well i started reading in chapter 17 I think when God changed Abrams name to Abraham and told him circumsize his family and stuff . Well in that chapter he laughed at God . When i read that a thought came up this doesnt make sence how could he beleive and laugh ? It scared me because i questioned the Bible . Im so scared of that . Something is wrong with me . The harder i try the worse it gets . Oh and i dip skoal to and trying to quit and a thought tells me i have to quit before i can be saved . See im all messed up . Thats not the half of the thoughts that torture me to death . Sometimes i feel like God is going to smite me down to the ground . All i see mostly is His wrath and im so scared . See i grew up with ocd but didnt know i had it . Now for the past year it is attatched to my faith . What i have anyway . Im scared at church , reading the bible , and even when i pray and im allways praying for God to help me . If yall knew how i grew up thinking you would understand . I thought i was normal but im not . Ive never known love for any amount of time . I allways feel so condemed . I confess the same sins over and over . I cant repent good enough or beleive enough . Im overwhelmed . Im really disabled because of it . I cant even do things with my son or family because i got to stay close to home so i can pray when this starts and it does everyday . Only an act of the grace of God can deliver me . I have no friends at all . So i pray to God alot saying the same things over and over . I cant stop . I dont even care if i sound crazy i just need Gods love in my heart . My mind goes around and around thinking , wow this makes my eyes water .
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/8/2008 12:38:24 AM
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It sounds to me as if you may need specific prayer for deliverance. If you have asked Jesus into your heart and believe that He died on the cross for you, then you are His child and satan has no right to do any of this to you. This stuff that is happening to you is certainly from the evil one.
I encourage you to seek a ministry of someone who is a trusted Godly person of integrity, who is known to be experienced in this kind of ministry. Meanwhile, keep telling commanding satan to leave you alone in Jesus Name.
Um but what is "dip skoal"?
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/8/2008 1:57:32 AM
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Ok, I have to tell you...There is NOTHING wrong with you, you are not abnormal..Don't you see this is all from satan telling you every word that you said in your last post. Every word you said was negative and I can understand what you are going through.
If you tell yourself that you are all of these things and you keep saying it, then you will make yourself believe that these things are true and they ARE NOT..My friend taught me that, you will think yourself into being these things, anything negative like these thoughts do not come from God. You said you are trying so hard that it gets worse...You need to just take a breathe, you need to find things that keep you busy, start a hobby, start spending time with your son and family. These are good distractions, these are the things that will help you to change and start moving forward, do not say you can't do something, then of course you will again talk yourself into believing that you can't do it..of course you can!! Start turning all this negative talk into positive, go to Barnes and Noble and get some books on self motivation. They really do help, trust me I know. This process is slow and i know from experience. After I started changing my way of thinking, and got more involved in church, those things took up my time and things started changing for the better because I slowly started to forget my problems and my focus started getting stronger on the Lord. I then went through deliverance and that is when my life really changed. You HAVE TO get counseling or talk with the pastor, you can not stay like this. You can not do this alone, you have to have fellowship with others and have someone in your life that can hold you accountable. I was told that by my best friend, that you can not do christianity alone and it is so very true. You need others around you! You have to take that 1st step and get help from someone who is strong in their christianity that can help you and counsel you. It really will help I promise...
Please do not give up and just take a deep breathe and take it one day at a time, keep your head up and continue to look forward to the Lord and lean on him...Ask him to deliver you from this demon and that he does not have permission to be in your life that he must flee from you right now in jesus name.....
I am praying for you....
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/8/2008 10:19:17 AM
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orangecrush, I'm so sorry you grow up not feeling loved. But God loves you so much. You know you don't have to give up skoal before you can be saved. That would be works, and God's word says it is by grace we are saved, not by works. As for feeling like God is going to smite you down, and won't forgive you, we all deserve to be smited down and not forgiven. All of us, each one, but He gives us His grace. Because He loves us.
Have you seen a doctor? It may be that medacation for your ocd and any other problems you may have can help with the feelings and thoughts you are having.
Praying
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/8/2008 6:00:41 PM
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Orangecrush I want you to know you are not alone in the way you feel.
I have felt like that before. I know it is very hard but it can get better. I know how lonely and scary it feels.
The Lord knows what you are going through and is going to help you through it.
He understands if you are not in good health and he loves you just the way you are.
He will help you a little each day and take you step by step to help you with your troubles.
Dont ever give up because there is always hope.
No matter how terrible things seem they can get better. You have to beleive that.
The Lord can change situations and the Lord can heal.
Dont beat yourself up because you think not good enough or you make mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes
Keep talking things over with the Lord and trust that He is right there with you.
The Lord wants you to know and beleive HE LOVES YOU!!
THE LORD WILL NOT LEAVE YOU OR GIVE UP ON YOU!
Keep reading his WORD and keep PRAYING.
Things will get better and your faith will get stronger everyday.
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Dear Father, I lift up orangecruch27 to You. Father, You know his pain. Stop these lies Father, and help him to focus on You, and You alone. Father, I bind any evil or illness around him and ask that You fill him with Your peace and assureance. Thank You Father for what You will do for orangecrush. May You use him to Your glory. In Jesus name. Amen
Praying in agreement
Lord I pray that you will give orangcrush clarity in his mind.
Help orangecrush to discern the truth,and have faith.
In Jesus name
Amen
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/8/2008 8:46:40 PM
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OC - God loves you.
God has something very good planned for you.
For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. Romans 8:18
OCD is a horrible disease. It attacks what is important to us.
I saw the loving post you posted awhile back to someone hurting... I see
your love towards a fellow Christian in that post. Please keep doing those
loving acts towards your brothers and sisters in Christ. Reach out
when you are hurting...that is the best kind of faith.
Father, Please provide Christian friends for OC where he lives.
Please shine your light in his emotions and mind and give him
relief from this onslaught of OCD and demons. Thank You that
You are with OC in this severe trial. Thank You that You love OC.
In Jesus' Name Amen
< Message edited by Imnotmyown -- 6/8/2008 8:54:29 PM >
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/9/2008 2:16:11 AM
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i understand what you are going through, i have been in that same situation many times before, accept the enemy sent some of his follows to me to harass me and tell me to my face all of my sins of the past, and trying to tell me Jesus never wanted me, and that he will never forgive me. what he did was use abuse to try to get me saved, but i believe i already was saved, i just fell when i allowed the lust of my flesh to take over. I will never let someone come close to me ever again who do not show their true colors when claiming to be a christian. ive tried shedding some light but, there is only so much a person can do, but leave it to God, and let him take care of my foes.
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/9/2008 8:56:29 AM
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Father,
Thank you for the fact that you will see to it that this darkness will be temporary and that, eventually, good will prevail. In the meantime, we ask for the help that you see is needed. Please come to the rescue and deliver orangecrush27. We thank you and pray for orangecrush27 in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/22/2008 9:26:08 PM
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Imnotmyown
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Thinking of you OC
prayers..
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/22/2008 10:20:54 PM
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Itlyn1kc
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Hi my friend. I am still praying for you always!
kc
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/23/2008 2:36:45 AM
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Father,
Thank you for the fact that you will see to it that this darkness will be temporary and that, eventually, good will prevail. In the meantime, we ask for the help that you see is needed. Please come to the rescue and deliver orangecrush27. We thank you and pray for orangecrush27 in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
I'm standing together in pray with the others.
Amen
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/23/2008 6:19:01 AM
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Dear Father, I lift up orangecruch27 to You. Father, You know his pain. Stop these lies Father, and help him to focus on You, and You alone. Father, I bind any evil or illness around him and ask that You fill him with Your peace and assurance. Thank You Father for what You will do for orangecrush. May You use him to Your glory. In Jesus name. Amen
I am praying in agreement.
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/23/2008 7:35:49 AM
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I know you might have heard this before, but I know where you are coming from. I have been there before, nad not too long ago. It seems to be one of the most awful things to go through. You think there is no hope for anything, you think you are lost and going to hell, etc. Well I can tell you that is nothing but a lie from satan himself. I have had much of the same thoughts that you have had and from time to time they still try to bother me. But when they do I just take the advice like you have been given here from the others and I pray all the harder, call on the Lord, He WILL save you. I wish I could say it would be and easy fight but it's not. Alot of good friends and pastors have told me that one reasons the enemy is fighting you so hard right now is that he is afraid of losing you. He knows youare leaning more towards God than him. Kepp praying and believing that God will answer and we'll keep praying for you.
Jimmy
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/23/2008 12:04:30 PM
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I know you might have heard this before, but I know where you are coming from. I have been there before, and not too long ago. It seems to be one of the most awful things to go through. You think there is no hope for anything, you think you are lost and going to hell, etc. Well I can tell you that is nothing but a lie from Satan himself. I have had much of the same thoughts that you have had and from time to time they still try to bother me. But when they do I just take the advice like you have been given here from the others and I pray all the harder, call on the Lord, He WILL save you. I wish I could say it would be and easy fight but it's not. A lot of good friends and pastors have told me that one reasons the enemy is fighting you so hard right now is that he is afraid of losing you. He knows your leaning more towards God than him. Keep praying and believing that God will answer and we'll keep praying for you.
Jimmy
same thing with me, i was in Gods word daily when i moved out on my own, when my brother came to visit, he was in the middle of splitting up with his wife and they were thinking about getting a divorce and i warned him, not too, because Jesus does not like divorce.........besides they both went to church together for a long time, so there is trouble in the waters, ask god to fix it, that's all.....and i think that is when the enemy started to attack, 8 years ago..........i know i have been saved, god told me to put on the armor, but i was just a wee little baby....and did not know why i needed the armor......still a wee little baby....but i was so excited i had my very own bible.........ans so i went through the bible and the one year bible plan i was following as well, and then stupid me fell, backslid, made a big boo boo, and then covered it with a band-aide, and now that band-aide is stuck on me, i just take a peak, ooops boo boo still there..........now im ripping it off and giving that boo boo to Jesus.....
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update - 6/30/2008 2:20:02 PM
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orangecrush27
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Was carried to the hospital thursday nite . When they took my blood pressure it was 100 something over 100 something . My pulse was 160 per minute . This is how serios this is . I know it may be hard to beleive but there really is no help here so i left to my own thoughts . Thankyall for the prayers !
OC
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RE: update - 6/30/2008 2:58:32 PM
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Father God, nothing is to big for You. Please help orangecrush.
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RE: update - 6/30/2008 3:13:39 PM
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Orangecrush.... trust me. You aren't the only one who's had thoughts like this. I've had them many times. Its the devil playing with you, trying to come between you and the truth God wants you to know. (Personally, you might want to know this... but I believe that, when this happens, its because God has a great plan for you, and Satan wants to keep this from happening. Stand strong in your faith, and fight this. With the Lord's help, you can and WILL do it.)
I pray now to the almighty Lord, God, and ask that he will send you comfort and wisdom and that he will send his legions of angels to fend off the demonic forces that are tormenting you in this way. Please, God, let Orangecrush know that you are indeed with him, and that he is special to you and loved by you. All of us are sinners, but your Son died on a cross for all of us to be redeemed. Please, Lord, let him see that redemption is his through Jesus's perfect sacrafice.
I ask this in the name of the one true Savior of all of mankind, Jesus Christ, your beloved and blessed Son who reigns in Heaven forever and ever. Amen.
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RE: update - 6/30/2008 6:10:05 PM
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Father God, nothing is to big for You. Please help orangecrush.
Amen
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RE: swallowed up by darkness - 6/30/2008 7:32:15 PM
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Hetyra123
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Lord I pray for orangecrush27 thay you will surround him with your presence. Speak to his heart about how much you love him. I pray that if medication is needed you provide the right medication for him. Bring people in his life that will walk with him through this and encourage him. In Jesus name I pray Amen.
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