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BeautifulFemale -> Straight from the heart - for adults only. (6/21/2008 4:43:49 PM)
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I have a question and I know most Christians will say that I must be joking, but having been a lukewarm Christian for so long, I ask myself, why we need to commit full heartedly to Christ? I don’t sleep around, drink or swear. I work hard. The Holy Spirit does speak to me and bless me. Yes, I have had to ask God for help in many situations, but reading the Word and praying can be tedious. I also find it quite daunting to give myself totally to Christ. I mean, I read an article talking about being sexually pure. They stated that for some of us who do have active sexual emotions (and are thinking of marriage/not thinking of celibacy) –they asked if the reader ever considered that God may not WANT them to marry; that the suffering the frustrated single may be experiencing may be a way God is teaching them to be disciplined and come closer to Him. When I read that, I was like, what’s the point then? Committing fully because ‘we have submitted our whole selves to Him’ – and then, we’re not meant to do anything about our sexual emotions? Nobody talks about what to do and so with the build up, what are we meant to do, ignore it???!!!
I hate these opinions. It’s hard enough being single and attractive when men repeatedly offer themselves. (I've taught myself to push those men away, but when I have had flings in the past -as a teen, the boundaries kept pushing further and further.)
I really don’t know how to go on like this. I will admit that I have looked at the 'internet option' a few times, but I don’t fantasize about those on the screen, I get aroused sometimes. Other than that, I may not look at it for months.
Sigh.
Single questioning her faith
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